Wishing I could be Miki Sayaka
Up until now, Sayaka was probably my least, or second to least favorite character in Madoka. I thought her story was fairly predictable, especially with the Ophelia-esque development. But now, she has redeemed herself to me. I think she’s my favorite character in the show. Why? Because I can relate to her.
In late November, I started going out with a friend. Two days ago, I was dumped. I’ve seen it on TV and anime and other media countless times, and now I finally know what it feels like. It is the worst feeling in the entire world. I cried for hours. I have no appetite whatsoever. I feel extremely depressed. And despite what anyone says, no matter how many times someone tells me “it gets better”, it doesn’t help in any way.
Now that I finally know how it feels, I can sympathize with her. I know what it’s like to feel like there’s no hope in the world.
Honestly, I wish I were a mahou shoujo and became a witch right now. It’s so much quicker and easier to give up than to recover. Unlike Sayaka however, I don’t have that option. I really wish I did. According to a friend, it takes half of the time of the relationship for things to get better. I’ve got a long nineteen days ahead of me.